trying to breathe again

I'm literally trying to breathe again.  Find that emotional and mental space to feel like a human being, not a machine.  I don't remember what it's like to be me anymore.  I've become a different person, again.  Each of these intense journeys reshape the person you are - and it takes a bit of mental/emotional "integration" time to bring yourself back into being a whole person again.

Doing an ICO, is not for the faint of heart.  It's not for the sensitive or the self-conscious.  It's not for those that do not have the stamina.

All I can say, is since May 2017, it's been a lot of back-breaking long hours.  Weeks on weeks away from family, away from husband, and away from my toddler.  It's wake up to sleep, nonstop work.  At the worst point, we were taking 1.5-3 hour naps at a time working around the clock for weeks on end.  

Oh yea, and the crazy schedule.  Greece, UK, Switzerland, Cayman Islands, United States, and all over.  

Trying to breathe again means forcing myself to not open the phone first thing in the morning.  It means giving myself permission to eat lunch (again).  It means giving myself permission to call a friend I haven't spoken to in over 8 months.  It means giving myself permission to cook dinner for my family.  It's been REALLY difficult getting back to a normal human life.  The past 8 months have taken a hard hard hard hit on my family, my husband, and my toddler - also my in-laws and my mother who've stepped in to help the family as I've been working so much.  

Thanks for being on this journey with me.
​Arry