[my miscarriage: post 3 of 5] first morning sickness

This post was written on October 6, 2013.  It's been about 3 months since the miscarriage...  and it seems all like a dream.  Like it never happened... I know it did, but it's completely surreal.  Life is happily back to normal.  My husband and I dined out over the weekend enjoying cocktails.  I wore a fun dress with stilettos.  I haven't lost any weight, but I'm not at all trying to.  ...  I'm scared about having to go through it again --- for those that get pregnant completely ignorant of what the real pregnancy experience is like, it's better that way.  The fairy tales of carrying around an adorable baby bump, that it happens oh so very easily, that morning sickness is just a little throwing up here and there, ...  It's true, "ignorance is bliss". 

Love,
Arry
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OMG.  This morning was apparently my first experience with morning sickness.  I've had a month long relationship with constant nausea - it's a pain in the butt to deal with.  I'm used to it now, it comes and goes.  I find that if I nibble all day long, I'm better.  I'm also thirsty all of the time (for those that know me, this is rare for me). 

Woke up this morning and suddenly, the room was spinning and my stomach was cramping. I breathed in and then gagged on the big gulp of air.  Lots of gagging as I ran to the bathroom.  Heaving.  Moaning.  Sweats, lots of sweats.  ...  After which, I crawled into bed with my husband and whimpered, "I think I'm dying". 

Seriously.  THIS is morning sickness?  THIS IS HORRIBLE!!!

Keeping my fingers crossed that this doesn't happen again... 
First doctor visit tomorrow.  Wish me luck.

xo,
Arry